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Month: August 2017



I wasn’t looking at where I was going and look where I end up.

Sometimes you just have to let things come to you, when they do, don’t be afraid to say yes. This Journey is an amazing example of just saying yes and having no preconceived notions. Once I decided to really set out and jump head first into a pool of water that seemed shallow and dangerous, I began to feel the effects of going with the flow.


Sustainable living was the subject matter for the travel days, as there are many people looking to find a way to create, recreate, reuse and renew old products and ideas. They are using many venues and alternatives to the prescribed sources like the hardware store or building supply store, to build and create sustainable life.

Leave NO! footprint, was on the subject of everyone’s conversation.


We have all heard of them, do we truly understand what they can mean to the planet and to the many homeless people, Native Americans living on land that is uninhabitable. Foxhole homes and Mitchell Zeno Ballard, are making a difference in the community of Alamogordo NM, where they have started a community for Homeless Veterans, building with re-purposing diverse excess / surplus property, and turning it into earthships. They are self sustaining, temperate climate, homes that keep a constant temperature, using solar and wind energy.  They harvest their own water, use and reuse all household sewage, by utilizing an in indoor and outdoor treatment cells resulting in food production and landscaping with no pollution of aquifers.  Earthships have a wetlands, planters hold hundreds of gallons of water from sinks and the shower area, using plants that cleans the water and is reused in the flushing of toilets. Earthships assist in growing food in greenhouses, which can be harvested year around.

If all this sounds fantastic, it is and this maybe the answer to housing issues, water problems and pollution issues. The earth is hitting a critical mass on the consumption of raw materials, and humans are becoming more and more in need of supporting the planet and themselves. Earthships contain life, reuse and recycle all in a small space.

So land is now the only issue.

I met Mitchell at a small hot springs in Idaho, where his enthusiasm for his project, was enough to get his number and look to meet with him when I was leaving the area. On the way out I was returning phone calls a catching up on business stuff, and turned the opposite direction from Mitchell’s place where he is building a moveable sustainable earthship. As I called him to see if I could find a better time, his passion and commitment was a catalyst for me to turn around and drive an hour back to meet and see his project. I am glad I did his commitment to helping the earth extends to changing building codes to allow earthships to be built so they meet expectations of earthly living, at a lower cost, and create a dynamic place for veterans to live. Using a grassroots movement, being the example, he purchased 160 acres in Alamogordo NM, to build 50 structures and house 100 veterans. His passion is immense, his ability to move mountains, literally and figuratively will, I believe, change the way we live, breath and take care of this planet.

I am so grateful that there are people out there stepping up to create change, Mitchell is just one passionate example. I posse a question to you now, how can you start to make a difference in the world? One simple step, like recycling, or volunteering, can change the world for you and someone else.  There are many ways in which we all can start to change the patterns of our human existence.

Thank you Mitchell for being the example.

See Foxhole Homes Facebook for more information about how you can support them in building homes for Homeless Veterans.

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Wisdom from a Toltec Dreamer

Wisdom from a Toltec Dreamer

I am on the road looking to seek out people who are making a difference in the world and using their talents to assist others.  I am taking a big leap of faith that the right people will show up, I welcome you along for the journey.

There are so many people with so many stories, yet there are many with a special twist.  They quietly do their work hoping to bring light and/or bring the vibration up, in people they encounter daily. I have met so many, and this trip I hope to meet more.

Knowledge is Power!   Like the wisdom from grandparents, people in these times, have learned a lot. They have found themselves in circumstances, which have guided them into a world where they had to work on emotional issues at a deep level. They then learn and grow, and then become teachers.  What I have found so amazing is, that these people are deeply passionate about what they do, and they become part of a great time of change, hoping that even if it’s just one person, they can help heal this world.

To change the world is to change the vibration of the people of the world. Vibration is a frequency that is in everything, trees, plants and even rocks. Our body can resonate at varying different frequency. Some people resonate at a low frequency depending on the food they eat, the amount of stress in their life, the amount of sleep they get, and the amount of time spent outdoors. It can change depending on where you spend your thoughts and how grounded you are to the earth.   Frequency can be disrupted by a higher vibrating energy or a lower vibrating energy.  Vibrating low or high is not worse or better, it just is. I call a low vibration a mild hum, where thoughts are slow, and actions are reactive. High vibrations are like fast hum like a hummingbirds wings, moving quickly and thinking clearly or understand things at quicker pace.

Music is one way of bringing up vibration. Have you ever heard a song that just brought you to place of sadness, or a song that made you laugh and want to sing along?  That is one example in how vibration can work with music. In so many ways music brings us to place in our body and thoughts.  That is how musicians make a difference; the ways they practice is important to the vibration of the music. By sharing with you, they bring to you to a specific vibration.

My first interview, I got called into after I attended a night of great connection.  I met Russ Jones, a humbling soul, with unique character,  we connected through facebook and then again this night.  I had brought my flute from Peru, which I have fought with,  could not play, and approached him with my issue.  That conversation led me to see that he had a great story about life.

Russ Jones is a master flutist, playing songs for people, live on facebook and sharing the gift of his talent. Native American flutes are his specialty; they have a specific sound all on their own.  I learned this; since purchasing one from Russ; that it takes practice of breath.  I am so grateful, that this lesson has been come to me, as it becomes one more piece of self understanding on how I breathe. What a great gift he shares, with everyone he meets.  If everyone learns to breath, or slows down to hear a great song on a flute, we all can vibrate at a higher frequency.  As the sound itself has its own resonance so does the person who plays it, like any instrument.

Russ started his journey through looking to learn to play the drums about 7 years ago. He went to the music store and was not interested in the loudness of the background music, yet was called to the flutes and he has been playing ever since.  He shares his music on his facebook page because he feels that the soul of the flute allows people to become more in tune with self, and brings the vibration of people to a higher frequency.

One more of the gifts that Russ shared with me , is something he came upon  when he journeyed into Mexico, where he learned the teachings of the Toltecs and ancient civilization. Russ is a Toltec Dreamer  and shares Teotihuacan a Walk with people, supporting them in discovering their true nature.  The teaching of the Toltecs has been brought to the world through Don Megal Ruiz, “The Four Agreements.” An Amazing book on self discovery from within. It impacts the inner self, and was one of the first gifts I ever received,  on how to connect with the deeper meaning of life. At the age of 35 the book was a beginning into my journey in healing my own hurt soul.  This book changed the way I see myself in every circumstance.

The four agreements is a great read and easy, it assist you in understand the bigger meaning of you. While it may seem spiritual, or religious, it has none of those overtones. If you even look at the simple teachings of each agreement you can see how it can affect your world in positive manner.  It’s touted as a personal guide to freedom.

The Four Agreements go as follows.

  1. To be impeccable with your word. (are you?)
  2. Don’t take anything personally> ( ya right?)
  3. Don’t make any assumptions (what do you think of me?)
  4. Always do your best ( I can only hope to!)

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These agreements are simple to learn; however to practice them in everyday is tough. Look at it try it, and then think about simplifying. The Toltec teachings that Russ shares is through Power Journey’s. They are non-medicinal gatherings where you find a deeper meaning of self.  He travels to Mexico and Peru taking people to teach them about Toltec’s and assisting them in dreaming a better life.Try a self empowering Journey to Mexico, learn with a humble teacher. It can be an inspiring journey to understand your higher meaning. Russ welcomes anyone who is ready to delve into self discovery, added bonus he plays a wonderful flute.  Click the link below to see how you can take that journey.

Toltec Dream walk

Russ sees himself as the ultimate dreamer, as he is one of those people who look to find meaning in this life, he adds in his own touch of magic, by assisting others to become better for themselves. I would agree that he is an amazing dreamer, bringing light to a world of chaos. I appreciated the little time I had with him, his soul has learned a lot, so that he may now teach.

Look at the Toltec teachings, listen to the music of Native people and I hope you can find some peace in this world through the journey.

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Facebook feeds the Ego in me that wants to be seen.

Facebook feeds the Ego in me that wants to be seen.

I began using facebook back when it was all new, and I have used it in many ways. It kept me connected to  family and friends across the world. It also gave me a place to vent needed emotions, and arguments. Then it became a platform to inform and educate, raise the vibration and thinking.

I also noticed a trend in my thinking and a trend in the way people reacted to certain posts. If I had an inspiring post, I got a lot of likes and if it was some meandering thought, it was never even looked at.

Now this could be trends in how it shows up on the feed or it could be the time of day. There are many reasons why the reactions were that way. I just know I was seeing something also inside me with social media, which made me start to think about how it is changing how we do things, and how much we stay in this moment. How it feeds us and how we want to be fed life.

In the interim of being of facebook I have met many people, online and in person. I became friends with many outside of the facebook world, then stayed connected through it. I have freinds I have never met in person and others who after I disagreed with them, they de-friended me.  I became friends with old high school crushes, some became new ones. It all became my social world, as I finished my degree.

I wonder how is this world of facebook keeps us connected to each other, or does it just fulfill a need to be seen. I questioned how we identify with ourselves and what it does to our ego, and how all of this fed into the “I” how “I” interpret the world.

I thought about all those who can’t leave their homes and sit fulfill their life through others.  How the “ I “ and other people see self, and compare their lives, as they see what others are portraying.  How sad people can become, because they don’t have the life of others, and how it creates and/or furthers depression.

I wondered about the thoughts we have about what others are doing, vs. where we are at. The thoughts of comparing lifestyles, and fashion, adventures and looks, all become a part of an identity, the “I”.

Then there is the drama of de-friending, and the value of those friendships, if statements go against beliefs, or even to have a different opinion that negates others. Its easy inconspicuous and no one gets to dialog about the differences. It makes it easy to ghost off and never say a word.

As I have watched and participated in the inter-working of facebook and how it creates paradigms, which entwine with our own personal life experiences.  I see how we all are attached to the idea that we can portray our outside world in a way that we want others to see it as, and compare to what our world really looks like. I watched as people went through their morning process of animals, families, friends and even communities.  I saw how quickly people were ready to step in with kind words, wisdom and even support.

It is in itself a community of diverse family.

I also watched the ego step in, my ego, others and the reactions to it. Some were very supportive others as they fulfilled their needs of accomplishment were met, in statements to me, to others or in the post itself. This all brought my attention back to me, the “I” and how I became attached to ideas on how people saw me and became very intrigued by their reactions. When I posted my drama, it became an experience in support and unusual responses; because I am never really clear on the whole story in my posts. I became very aware of my ego, how it was enhanced by the facebook experience.

I saw how I could call in the sentiment, anger, even the chatter or laughter if needed.  I could call in love, when I am lonely, sad or just need a lift. Facebook is a community in which we can be uplifted, filled by ego or even just connect.

I took myself off facebook, just by not responding, posting or looking at it for a week.  As I did this I realized that I was looking for things in my world, for facebook purposes only.  When I found that I was restricting myself to sharing I became more aware of what I wanted to look at vs. what I wanted to share. Selfies became a non-existent thing, where I didn’t need a photo of myself.  Instead; I got to experience what I look at in the world vs. what I look like in the world.

The ego is a funny thing, facebook is also. Are they both intertwined with excerpts of what the “I” wants to be? Sending out messages for all to connect, react, establish, and or become seen. I wonder what your thoughts are, how you feel facebook and this social media world has changed you. How it allowed  you to grow or how you were able to shadow the real you.

Can you take a week off and see what or where it feeds you?

Eckhart Tolle did this youtube video about facebook and how it affects us, it questions how we define ourselves according to facebook.  It shows how we can be without facebook.

I will continue to connect with facebook and I will always consider my ego as I do. I will also look at the images and the portrayal of them, hoping to see the truth and reality of each post. I will work to be as far from ego the “I” and as close to bringing up the vibration of the self. In my posts I hope you see the real me as I take the layers off and portray the real me.

Please feel free to contribute to the discussion as it is important for us all to understand this crazy world and how we work together in it.



Why is the World in such a hurry?

Why is the World in such a hurry?

Is there something I just don’t get? 

I wonder why we are all going so fast that we don’t take the time and slow down, and look around, see what is going on in the world, into the people’s worlds that we encounter. When you go to check out at the local grocery, do you look at the person behind the counter, look in there eyes? Do you see if they are having a good day or a bad day? When they say “Hi how are you today,” is your reply the standard, “I am fine how are you.”  Then the check out begins. What about when you go out to dinner, hostess seats you, do you exchange eye contact or the usual and go about your dinner. Yet these are everyday people serving you. They have a story, they have a life, they are there getting paid to service you, yet there is no connection. There actually is a lot of disconnection.

Is that what the world needs right now?

This blog came about due, to a day of enjoying a beautiful valley in Northern Utah on my road bike. Where the views are amazing and so wonderful to share with any companion; which is what I was doing. When I encountered, fast paced got to get somewhere traffic, yet they used more energy to honk a horn, than to apply pressure on the break, and even just move the steering wheel toward the left and safely veer around us. (no oncoming traffic) Just a simple honk and a near brush with a side view mirror.

As if I was in their way, not seeing that I could enjoy my bike ride.

So many times I hear people say, “road biking is so dangerous, I wouldn’t do that. “   I wonder if its courtesy, or lack of knowledge, and or even the idea that one person owns the whole road, that create these ideas, stopping people from enjoying this beautiful world.

I also encountered big truck on small hwy, which they could slow down and give a rider a bit of room, instead a biker can get caught in their air wake and it almost pushes you off the road.  Ya I guess this is why road biking is dangerous, but does it really have to be?

Why is it so hard to put on the breaks, slow down and look someone in the eye, and know they are experiencing this life with you, on the road, in the market, or even out to eat?

It takes that one moment to slow down, get out of  your world and see that we are all human on this planet living a human experience at our own level.

It also creates a place for courtesy, when we acknowledge that the person on the bike is enjoying themselves,  to to think of giving them a safe place to do it, and I can slow down.  What is really great is usually the biker will extend a wave thanking you, instead of the all too familiar “bird” ( which yes I did use). What a great moment of courtesy.

I also think of the everyday people dealing with a life circumstance, where it’s just devouring their every move.  Some people are afraid to make a change, or those that have no Idea how to get out of it. They may work at the local market, or they may even be driving a vehicle and very late for work and one more obstacle is becomes that extra hurdle.

Do you think slowing down, will help.

Do you think stopping and looking around at the people will allow  person lost in their own world to step out and see possibility?

Where are you in your life, happy, so happy you don’t see the people around you, or if you do, seeing others enjoying themselves at the expense of you being late, is just an irritant?

How do you connect with everyday people, how do you not? How can you get out of your shell and see the bigger picture?  Why is it so hard to stop and see the people across from you at dinner or the attendant at the gas station?

Making the world a better place is about looking around, seeing where you have it good, gratitude goes a long way.  Gratitude in slowing down, for a bike, to see a face, to have a conversation with others that are not in our immediate world we are able to connect,  find joy and be a better human to ourselves first of all and those that serve our world.

Oh ya and I could have been kinder and just let the lady who almost hit me with her mirror pass with her, ego in check. I dunno, but I did want to connect with her and just ask her to please read the rules of the road before driving again. I think the bird was just to get her to slow down. It would have been nice to have dialog, however in this world the bird is recognized as the international sign for………

Lesson learned for me.

I just ask that you take the time and build up instead of flipping the bird.